Well, have seen the Gynae yesterday. Did another ultrasound.. this time report shows cyst on both the left and right ovaries. Both about 12cm. Great.. doc said that keyhole surgery method will take too long.. so going to do open surgery otherwise known as bikini-cut. I'll need to be hospitalized for about 3 days after the op. Date scheduled on next Tuesday 18 Aug, will be admitted on Monday afternoon. My only hope now is that the cyst is not cancerous.. if not all my ovaries will be removed to be safe. If not the doc will try to save as much of my ovaries as possible. Coz for now, he can't tell how much of the ovaries have to be removed together with the 2 cyst. And its both on the left and right side some more. If its only one side at least I'll definitely keep one side of my ovaries. What's my major concern? I'm scared to be on the operation table. I'm afraid that the cysts might be cancerous and I'll have all my ovaries removed. If that's the case, I'll not be able to make the choice of whether I want to have children or not. Coz I don't have a choice to make.

I've stopped asking myself the "Why is this happening to me?" question. I've cried enough. I've heard enough reassurance from others that this is common among girls my age.