Firstly, I would like to express my deepest gratitude to all my friends and family members for the care and concern during the period before my op and after my op when I am recovering.

I was admitted into the hospital in Monday afternoon. My dad accompanied me there. Its just all the general formalities, administration matters and stuff. Then was at my ward and the doctor visited to ask a few questions, and then followed by the anesthetist. I thought that by then I would have already calmed down and settled for the op.

Tuesday, the day for the op. My parents came down early coz we din know wat time the op will be at since the doc's scheduled is so full with patients he needs to operate on.. we were told that mine should roughly be in the afternoon. At around 12pm, the nurse came and asked to to change into the blue gown, the one u will wear into the op theatre. The feeling's really scary. Soon, medical staff came into the ward with the bed to be pushed into the op theatre. Just like wat u always see in tv shows, I was pushed on the bed all the way into the op theatre. At tt moment, I began tearing again. My parents, especially my dad kept reassuring me that everything's going to be ok.. I'm going to be out very soon. Hearing those words, made me teared even more. Then i was all alone inside the op theatre. was left there for quite some time as the anesthetist put me on a drip. Then into the actual place where the op is going to be carried out, u can see those bright white lights that u always see in tv shows. I was given an oxygen mask to breathe, anesthetist gave me a jab and then i was asleep. The next moment when i woke up, I was already in the recovery area. I was conscious the moment the ocygen mask was removed from me. The pain was manageable, just like what u feel when u had a stomach ache. I dun know how long i was inside there.. but by the time i return to the ward, it was already evening time. I saw my parents and Murphy at my bedside. I was anxious to know the outcome of the op. But while waiting, i fell asleep again. When i woke up again it was like almost 9pm. The doc is still not here to explain anything to us. My mum when to ask the nurse outside, the kind nurse roughly told her abt the outcome. The op was successful, both my ovaries were still inside me. I'm so not gg into menopause at 22. Hearing that I was so so relieved. That night a few medical staff visited me, although the pain was bearable i still took one injection so that i could sleep better that night.

Wednesday morning, the nurses came to help me change into clean clothes. And I was helped down from bed to sit on the chair. Initially the pain from the wound was quite painful but after sitting down it was much better. Felt a little nauseous and giddy. Was told that it was probably the affect of the anesthetics. I started drinking some glucose water and then i was given pain killers to ease the pain from my wound. A physiotherapist (I think) then came to teach me how to exercise my legs for blood circulation and how to hold on to my tummy when i wanna cough. And also how to stand up and walk easily. Oh and prof Ho, who operated on me came to visit. The full report of the cyst whether its cancerous or not will only be out in 2 week's time. But during the op, they already did a quick test and it wasn't. Oh and they even gave us the pictures of my cysts. One for those on my left ovary and one from my right ovary. They were like several small cysts all stick together, like grapes like tt. Since its dermoid cyst you can even see hair and fats inside. Eww.. I was eating my dinner when they showed me the pictures.

By Thursday, i was able to move about on my own. Go toilet, get up and down from bed on my own.

And today Friday, I was discharged already. =)

At the hospital, I've got Ellie (teddy bear) and Daisy (duckling) to accompany me at night. My cousin and his wife bought it for me. =p

Well, have seen the Gynae yesterday. Did another ultrasound.. this time report shows cyst on both the left and right ovaries. Both about 12cm. Great.. doc said that keyhole surgery method will take too long.. so going to do open surgery otherwise known as bikini-cut. I'll need to be hospitalized for about 3 days after the op. Date scheduled on next Tuesday 18 Aug, will be admitted on Monday afternoon. My only hope now is that the cyst is not cancerous.. if not all my ovaries will be removed to be safe. If not the doc will try to save as much of my ovaries as possible. Coz for now, he can't tell how much of the ovaries have to be removed together with the 2 cyst. And its both on the left and right side some more. If its only one side at least I'll definitely keep one side of my ovaries. What's my major concern? I'm scared to be on the operation table. I'm afraid that the cysts might be cancerous and I'll have all my ovaries removed. If that's the case, I'll not be able to make the choice of whether I want to have children or not. Coz I don't have a choice to make.

I've stopped asking myself the "Why is this happening to me?" question. I've cried enough. I've heard enough reassurance from others that this is common among girls my age.